I won't make anymore changes to this wanna-be book.
I feel as if I have let the cat out of the bag. It makes me nervous. A friend of mine asked if I wrote and shared it with the purpose of seducing. I really didn't. I have also heard the word 'obsession' since I wrote this. I feel a little uncomfortable.
It is like that dream where you show up to work or school naked. I am naked and exposed, and I feel intimidated by it. I like it - I don't think the writing is terrible, but I just showed so much of myself. I wonder if I showed too much.
I am a little scared right now, actually.
I am sharing big parts of myself; I am more worried about reactions to my personal statements of self than I am of the unfinished quality of the writing itself (I did write it in 8 days after all, it can hardly be finished or polished). I want to hide.
I don't know where to hide.
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You are still very close to it and will be fr a while yet. It is no wonder you feel that your innards have been wrenched out and splattered on the most public wall in town for the stray dogs to lick- but never forget,your readers are looking at your words and seeing themselves in them, not judging you personally- most of them will never see you. I bet Emily felt like you do now, don't you?
Exciting innit.
Oh and as for obsession-I have an obsessive personality. I am not whole unless I am obsessing about something. I gave up worying about it a long time ago.
I can understand the scared and vulnerable feeling -
I'd like to say that it helps one grow but who knows.
You must display your badge, you know. It is a court-marshallable offence not to display your badge.
Congrats. Hope you "finish" it some day.
Oh, and nay-sayers are the hurdles put in place to test our resolve. Nay-sayers, also, want to be you but don't have the courage. Not to worry; treat them with sympathy.
I'm proud of you.
Love.
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